If you read back to some of my previous articles I talk a little about how fearful I was just starting out in this business. Fearful that I wasn’t “the best” or even good enough, quite frankly.
I felt like an impostor. Before I even knew it was a syndrome.
I think the bottom line is we all have to start somewhere.
We all have to be imperfect before we can truly master anything! I cannot imagine where I would be if I had let those fears take over and run my life.
Was I a great nail tech when I first started out? Oh, hell no! They were bumpy, always lifted and definitely weren’t something I was going to be showing of on the internet. But there was a fire inside me that was determined to get good. To be as skilled as my mentor. I knew deep down this was what I wanted to do, so I just ignored the little voice that said I couldn’t.
It wasn’t so easy in the beginning. I struggled with panic attacks and shaky hands. I didn’t even attempt nail art for the first five years!!! That shit scared me for sure! I lacked the confidence that really only can come with time and experience.
I just kept plugging away.
When the time came for another big shift in my career, I felt those same feelings creeping in. I was going to open my own nail studio. Just me, all by myself. No one to answer the phone, emails or make orders. Who was I going to call on when I was sick and couldn’t work? Who did I think I was?
Thinking I could do this all on my own…..The little voices showed back up telling me I wasn’t good enough.
Was I an impostor?
Sometimes blind faith is really the best way. When you have no other option than to succeed. When all the balls are in your court. When you’ve put all your eggs in one basket. When you literally have nothing left to lose. All you can do is achieve what you set out to do!! Fear or no fear, you gotta do it anyway!! I think that is when the big stuff happens. When you truly see what you are made of! How strong you really are!
So I did it! I took the leap of FAITH and succeeded! Actually becoming busier than I expected. I had to close my booking system because things were getting too full! I wish I could go back and tell that scared, brand new little nail tech to breathe. Trust yourself and relax. Lol get out of your damn head for a second and give yourself some credit for doing something that most people wouldn’t!!
So I will tell it to you instead!
Jump! Take a big breath and take the leap! In a few years you will be so thankful that you did! Trust me <3
You’re not an impostor, you’re a trail blazer!!
Cheyanne – The Nail Lamp Tramp